Tall women!

Is there something about tall women that is shocking and alluring to the world? Amazon or strangely freakish? Winds blow. Tall guys want short women and short women want tall guys. Has anyone ever asked a tall woman? I for one think Taller men are a better fit.

Monday, Monday!

It is clearly a conscious Monday. I am feeling a bit daunted by many of the feelings I have today. Can I balance what is real and what is right? What is old and what is new? Is there a place in this world for real princesses? Sometimes just wearing a tiara makes one feel like a million bucks. Today is it the Tiara or the million bucks that would make me feel better?

I think time moves too slow when I am waiting for perfection. Time moves too fast when I am caught in the moment of perfection. Watching my kids grow...too fast. Wanting to be a beter mom...too slow!

There is a place of balance. I am chiping away at it.

Making sense of making sense...

Welcome Thursday. I awoke with vivid memories. Now to make sense of them. Not an easy task. Just need to take the time to process, think and get it on paper. This journey is difficult.
I feel better today. The hernia surgery site welling is decreasing and feeling is returning. Hydrate and pace is my motto today. I am thankful for the people in my life and the gifts and blessings I have been given. Often amazed at it all.

"We can not direct the wind, but we can adjust our sails"
~Unknown~

"You'll seldom experience regret for anything that you've done. It is what you haven't done that will torment you. The message, therefore, is clear. Do it! Develop an appreciation for the present moment. Seize every second of your life and savor it. Value your present moments. Using them up in any self-defeating ways means you've lost them forever."
Wayne DyerAuthor and Speaker


It doesn't matter that the road's been rough, that you now have challenges, or that uncertainties loom on the horizon. None of these change the fact that for every thought you think today, worlds will come tumbling into existence. For every word you speak, legions will be called into action. And for every step you take, matter will be drawn from the ether.

Well it is a beautiful morning. I know my limits today. I think there will be time for me to listen to the necessary spirits to help me be where I need to be. Guidance and clarity are paramount. I forgot how it felt to be slow. This weekend was helpful for that. I know that so much that I do is not a necessary requirement for perfection. I have learned to let it go and find it will solve itself or will not become a priority. So looking back at this photo of two years ago I am amazed at how I look, how far I have come and what I see in my face and presence now. Very different woman, happier, more peaceful, more at ease, more accepting, forgiving and more at one with the job of intuitiveness and listening. Still have far to go and much to listen for and to! I think things keep getting better with age and time! I am thankful!

Sunday's Clarity

I took it fairly easy yesterday. Actually turned down some company to be able to be still and quiet. There isn't much I am in the mood for after all is done. My tummy is swollen and my body needs a shower. The bottle of Smoking Loon couldn't stand up next to me yesterday. I didn't take any pain meds so I had some merlot instead. It sure tasted better. I think it has added to my waistline though. Pain meds are fat free but surely don't burn any calories.

The cough is persistant. IS it fr some remnant of anasthesia? I hate the smell of your skin and urine after you have been on an IV! What happens to your smell?

IT is Sunday. I am looking forward to the sunshine. My folks sent me flowers and that made me smile yesterday. I know they worry alot. I find I like them so much more as an adult than I could have ever imagined as a kid.

I don't worry about going to church anymore. I used to feel so rebelous when I didnt go. I used to think I wouldn't be given the same amount of blessings or protections that I hadd if I went to church faithfully. ORganized religion and the culture of religion has shown me a great deal about the world, people, society and especially about myself. I want to be so much more discerning and intuitive of the mores and the stigma and the oppression and judgement.

I am humbled and grateful to know I am right where I need to be.
Thank you for Sunday Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother and Mem!

Clarity and intuition...

It is Saturday afternoon, I am laying in bed with the idea that I am susposed to sit tight and rest. That in and of itself is an oxymoron. After Femural Hernia Surgery yesterday I am stiff and sore. I don't think I have ever stayed in bed this long my entire life. I would have to ask my mom to verify if I slept this long as a teenager.

My kids are busy doing their own things and I am here thinking and hatching ideas for the rest of my future, my career and my passions. Is it possible to narrow something down to a finite? I don't think so. Here is my moment to get into this blog culture.

So I am working on gaining clarity and intuition. A dear friend of mine did my astrology chart and shared with me the things I already new. That did validate much of my direction and thinking. It also helped me to forgive myself since I am my own worst critic. Intuition needs to be the center of my thoughts and then I can relax and know that i am where I should be. I am happy with who I have become but want so much more for myself and my kids my life and my future.

So will thinking hard about how intuition runs through my life subjects, adventures and relationships. It is something I want to magnifya nd allow for growth. Something to share with others. I want to make this my most intuitive year so far and watch it grow as time goes by!